Candu

Merindumu selalu menjadi candu. Seperti tak jemu-jemu berharap untuk sebuah temu. Tiap malam kujamu gema kekariban hari lalu. Kini tak lagi aku jumpa jelmaan dirimu dalam aksara. Lenyap entah disapu apa. Kalau boleh aku mengigau, ingin aku datang menyapamu dengan medayu-dayu. Aku hantarkan sebungkus asa yang telah layu. Sekadar memastikan kamu tak lagi menggebu. Tak apa tak berbalas. Aku akan berlalu seperti debu tersapu nafasmu. 

Merindumu selalu jadi candu. Hanya kamu yang boleh meramu jamu penawarnya untukku. Itupun jika kau mau.

Monologue

I miss those moments when there was no day we didn't talk about many unimportant things to each other. You've got many new friends now who are closer to you than I am, friends you meet almost everyday. You look happier with you new friends. I should be happy for that but I'm sorry for I'm sad knowing it's not me making you laugh anymore. Almost no story shared anymore. I don't know what you're doing and what you're going through. You're such a busiest girl in the town.No story shared anymore. And maybe it's true that I've been replaced already. You post many tweets everyday. I read it. I see it. I know you're there tweeting but I can't feel you. We don't even say hi. We don't get any problem. We're just not as close as yesterday and it makes me sick, of course. Ah I'm just being too melancholic. But I think everyone will be over melancholic when they talk about best friends and loss. The loss of friend actually.

Her: ah~ no one can replace you. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE ON THE TOP TOP TOP LIST
Me: :)